okkkk so I might be going to the US in December ??? like there’s still a very slim chance that I actually will, everything’s just being talked about and stuff no actual solid plans yet but my sister suggested that she’d be willing to pay for one ticket which would be amazing and mum’s kind of on board as well bc she probs loves the idea that me and my beloved lister would be reunited and gosh I’m getting excited ! I might be spending this new year’s in NYC for fuck’s sake, and I know it’s probably busy as hell itself and all that jazz but I just love the idea so so so much ! I mean there was nothing wrong with my previous new year (except of course the fact that I threw up for the first time in 10 years and nearly had alcohol poisoning but it was all good anyway), it’s just that I could really use something to look forward to. Like really really.
!!!!!!!! I’m probably jinxing it all now but I just thought I’d share because I really fucking love the idea even if it doesn’t happen !
Food: veggie soup also pasta carbonara Drink: water Book: One Day (it’s not the best book i’ve ever read but it touched me so much that i’ve chosen to say it as my fav book because it’s so hard to actually choose my absolute favourite u needed to know this ok) Author: Patric Ness atm Song: Sweetheart, What Have You Done To Us by Keaton Henson Movie: Her TV Show: Please Like Me and Outnumbered Band: The Killers Solo Artist: Jamie T Place: wherever my mum is (kinda dependent on her atm which is lame and kinda weird but hey i’m a mess) School Subject: english Sport: running, walking, volleyball Male Actor: Idris Elba Female Actor: Zooey Deschanel
Best Friend: I’ve got a couple of nice chummies #lame Significant Other: lollll myself hahaha life is meaninglesssssssss Siblings: 2 sisters Dream Job: bookstore owner Tattoos: none, nor will I ever get any Piercings: also none Languages: Finnish is and English are my best ones, Swedish I’m kinda ok at and then these French which I kinda understand while reading but cannot produce myself nor understand when spoken to
Reason Behind URL: part of a Mockingjay quote, I like it a lot bc it’s kinda fandom but not noticeably so it’s nice Reason Behind Icon: toasting to how meaningless and unreasonably hard life is (y) # of Posts: 14606 Why You Joined: one of my fav finnish “lifestyle bloggers” transferred her blog to tumblr like ages ago and I thought her blog was nice so I made mine on here as well. also I thought that blogger was getting too big so I wanted “”“less attention”“” to my blog so I made a tumblr. lol no one even cared about my blogger blog lol this story is dumb. First URL: hellodistricttwelve # of Blogs: 2, this one and the oh so famous blogger one Hoarded URLs: ellinoo, vasthaneradas, stevnroges, richardparkers. I’ve thought about making a change to one of these bc they’re all brilliant imo but idk
today in choir the starting note for sopranos at was the first note of black parade and every single time the pianist pressed it my head along with like three other people shot up it’s like this is some weirdass emo programming and we’re doomed to black eyeliner hell
i had a crush on this guy and i decided to pull a Pavlov on him by offering him whenever i saw him this brand of candy he seemed to really like and after a while whenever he saw me he got excited for a second then you could see his expression shift to wondering the why the hell was he so happy to see me and i swear it was the evilest thing but also the most hilarious i made a guy like me by conditioning him into associating me to a candy he liked
ok so I did a lot of things today. I was at uni for almost 6 hours doing productive shit and after that I came home and started cleaning my room straight away. I also did a bit or rearranging so overall the cleaning process took a lot of energy and also time. In the middle of cleaning I wanted to go to the store so I did, even though it was rush hour. I bought a new clock for my wall and also a basket for my hair thingys and some bits and bobs for halloween.
Upon arriving home from the store it started to dawn on me that I’d done way too much for one day. It’s like you know when you’re sick and you’re not supposed to go back to school until you’ve had one day without a fever ? Yeah well I’m the dumb girl who I went to school still pale af and with a little temperature. I overestimated my ability to cope and it backfired pretty badly, I panicked and felt absolutely horrible all of a sudden (which is why I didn’t call u, lister, sorry!). My heart was racing, my flatmates were really noisy and asked a lot of questions and I started to panic about the breakup and uni stuff and everything and jfcccc… I’m still not completely in the clear, I called mum and had a little cry but I’m still shaky and feel really weird. Also the new clock is really noisy.
Point being, I guess I’ll be taking things slow from now on, focusing on one stressful thing per day rather than tackling everything all at once. I guess it’s ok not to be completely ok two weeks after a breakup and a complete breakdown.
Probably the worst types of people are the ones that shut you down to make themselves look cooler than you, for example if you get excited and squeal and they’re like “woah what was that..” or if you talk loudly because you’re passionate about something and they say “relax dude wow” and then give a look… Like fuck off stop trying to act so cool and collected. You don’t seem more mature you just seem fucking boring and monotonously placid.